I’ve been testing a lot on antivirus and this is actually my first time testing a HIPS software. This is nothing like the normal antivirus that you use. Well virus normally comes in to your computer from either the web browser, email, USB drives or network. If you disable all of them, it’s impossible that your computer will be infected by virus but who can live without an internet connection nowadays? So what DefenseWall does is it labels all those applications that comes from location where virus can come in as “Untrusted” and run them in limited rights in a virtual zone that is specially allocated for them.

Here is an example. Lets say you downloaded a file using BitTorrent. Scanned it with your antivirus and it didn’t warn you that it is a threat. Then you run it thinking that its safe and the virus started to modify the system settings such as disabling Windows Task Manager, regedit, adding autostartup to the virus and etc. Well thanks to DefenseWall, you got nothing to be afraid of because all the damages done by the virus only affects the virtual zone and not your real Windows system. With only a reboot, your system is back to normal and the damages done by the virus will be restored. Now this is very different from system snapshot software because a snapshot reverts everything back to a specific date. As for DefenseWall, everything is still intact except for the damages that the virus seems to have done. That is how a HIPS software supposed to work according to the description and manual. I’ve put DefenseWall to the test and it managed to block the threat in some way or another.

Test 1: Install Rootkit based Keylogger
There is a keylogger that goes by the name of All In One Keylogger for Windows by RelyTec. It uses rootkit method to hide itself so that it is harder to detect. When I downloaded it using Firefox, the keylogger installer file automatically being labeled as Untrusted file. Installed it and after a few seconds DefenseWall tells me that it found a process reading keystrokes via GetKeyState method.

I clicked the Terminate button and the keylogger process immediately got terminated. I rebooted the computer and the keylogger is no longer running but the files are still in the computer. As long as the keylogger doesn’t auto load when Windows is booted up, then you’re safe.

Test 2: Install Keylogger that bypasses antivirus and firewall
Probably the most expensive and popular keylogger in the world WebWatcher that cost $169.95 per year claims to bypass antivirus and firewall. There’s no trial for it and I had to pay the full price in order to test this. With DefenseWall running, I couldn’t get WebWatcher keylogger installed until I turn off the HIPS protection. So I turn off the HIPS protection, installed WebWatcher and DefenseWall didn’t detect any process reading keystrokes. I wouldn’t say DefenseWall failed this test because it managed to block WebWatcher from sending the keylogs and screenshot data to WebWatcher’s servers, making the keylogger useless.

Test 3: Install a crypted Bifrost trojan
I wanted to simulate a real scenario where a normal user unknowingly downloads a trojan from a website and then gets infected. I uploaded the Bifrost trojan crypted with Incognito to a website and then download it to my test computer using Firefox which is flagged as Untrusted by DefenseWall. I ran the trojan and DefenseWall managed to block it. I rebooted the computer and no sign of the trojan running in background.

Test 4: Run 20 different type of virus from network share
This is the last hardcore test which I did. I dropped 20 different virus on another computer and shared the folder. Then on my test computer with DefenseWall installed, I access the shared folder that contains 20 different type of virus and ran ALL of them! It created so much havoc on the test computer that it made Windows blue screen and auto reboot. To my surprise, when Windows is booted up, everything is back to normal like nothing ever happened. By default DefenseWall categorize network shared folders as Untrusted.

As long as you run ANY malicious files as Untrusted, your computer will be fine. However when you want to install legitimate software like Kaspersky Anti-Virus, you must remember to run it as “trusted” or else the installation will fail. So if you’re unsure, always run it as Untrusted and see what happens. The feature that I liked most in DefenseWall is the Events Log. I am able to see what the untrusted file is trying to open or do to my computer.

There are some other useful small features which is file and registry rollback which you can easily use to manually cleanup the debris left behind on your hard drive by malware after an infection attempt. The “Go Banking/Shopping” button is a special browser mode that allows safe access to online banking. While in this mode, your information is protected from untrusted computer processes by terminating all untrusted process.

Please be informed that this is NOT meant to be a replacement software for an antivirus but you can run it together. DefenseWall does not protect from file drops as many programs need to drop a file in order to run successfully (such as FireFox) and there is no security risk when a file is dropped (only when it is loaded into memory). Therefore, if the program is prevented from running in the memory, we can classify this as protected. Your antivirus will be useful in detecting these malicious files that has been dropped into your computer. DefenseWall is very light on your computer as it takes up only 14.6MB of memory and its peak is only 17.1MB.

SoftSphere Technologies, the maker of DefenseWall is very generous and kind to offer 75 one year license worth over $2000 to Raymond.CC readers. If you would like to win a license, write a comment at the end of this article and I will pick the 75 winners 24 hours later. Your email will be sent to SoftSphere and they will be contacting you.

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From Malaysia Kini

‘The defence in Anwar Ibrahim’s sodomy trial should therefore demand that the samples be sent to a reputable laboratory to determine their age and identity.’

‘I did not pass motion for two days’

Dok: It appears very likely that the prosecution is going to prove its case by showing that Anwar Ibrahim’s semen were found in Mohd Saiful Bukhary’s anus and on his clothing. There is a strong possibility that this semen might have been taken from Anwar’s previous trial and planted into Saiful and onto his clothing.

In the past several years, there have been studies which claim that it is possible to determine the age of a biological sample by using the ‘Temporal PCR’ method. The defence should therefore demand that the samples be sent to a reputable laboratory to determine their age and identity.

No Fool: Sounds a bit odd, doesn’t it? If you have been sodomised against your will, your reaction would be to go wash yourself and expel whatever it’s deposited into your behind with utmost urgency. And here he tells the whole world that he didn’t pass motion for two days. Hmm….

P Dev Anand Pillai: Even if he did not pass motion for two days, the urge would have been very strong. The peristaltic movement of the bowels would have been there and there would have been some secretion. The anus being a place in which bacteria is excreted, substances like semen would disintegrate fast.

It is different if the semen is deposited into the vagina where it can stay on for up to three days. But then God intended the semen to be deposited in the vagina – not the anus. So nature in itself has a way of dealing with this kind of situation!

Too bad, Malaysians are not the type of people that will revolt. If it had been India, Pakistan or the Philippines the people would have responded by now. But being Malaysians, our leaders know that they can even feed ‘poison’ to us and we will willingly take it saying that is is ‘teh tarik’.

No matter which Malay leader rises against the establishment, the oldest trick in the book will be used against him. All it takes is to have a willing boy.

Inspektor Klueso: Amazing that the frame-up did not include testimony such as ‘I couldn’t swallow for two days’, ‘ I could never swirl Listerine ever again in my life’, ‘ I always sleep with the light on after the traumatic experience’ and ‘ I always wear a chastity belt backwards in the proximity of men, especially folks I idolise’.

Come on, ‘Umnowood’ producers, like someone suggested, go to Hollywood to get real pro productions. ‘Sodomy II’ is worse than my kid’s Primary 2 annual school play production.

Calls for Anwar to leave political arena

SKS: Do all these guys realise that Anwar and his family are being pulled through the mud ‘Sodomy II’ because he is the opposition leader? He is going through all this for all of you and you can ask him to step aside so easily? Even dogs are more grateful than you guys.

Even if you put another person up there, they will still find something to tarnish his name with or charge him with something. So what you going to do then? Change again? Are you people for real? We need to change you people first for not having a backbone.

Temenggong: It is true that Anwar and Pakatan have badly handled the Hindraf and Sabah issues and that Pakatan is nowhere close to Putrajaya until these issues are settled. I do not think Anwar has the vision to take Pakatan any further and they have to start looking for a new leader as certainly he will be jailed.

Needless to say DAP must find a new secretary-general too as Lim Guan Eng seems to have abandoned social justice in favour of being business-friendly ‘to send the right message’ to investors.

Zul Noordin: I have strong grassroots support

YF: This ‘YB’ (amazed how he could ever have been chosen to be one in the first place) has a puerile mentality- using and abusing his religion to protect his deluded mindset. Just because Malaysiakini questioned his popularity, he now judges the news portal to be anti-Islam? Does this guy think he is God or what?

If you can’t defend your deluded mindset, please don’t drag your religion down with you. It’s blasphemous, don’t you know? You’re an embarrassment to your party. Your mindset is no different from that of the Taliban – using religion as an excuse to bully the rakyat.

Zubir: Yes, it is true – Zulkifly Noordin has the full and strong support of many and many of them are Umno members. So it is wrong to say that he did does not get any support. So, bon voyage Zul and good luck in your future undertaking with Umno or Perkasa or Party Cinta Malaysia – or even the Malaysian Makkal Sakhti Party.

Angry protesters torch effigy of Guan Eng

Ssteh: Another seemingly unending provocation to destabilise the Penang state government. However, they have the right to fee speech as long as they are peaceful and do not hurt the feelings of the multi-racial rakyat.

The police must be commended for giving a permit and hope that the same would be extended to other parties who want to protest peacefully.

Disgusted: This is the new modus operandi Unmo Youth uses to destabilise the Pakatan Rakyat government. Instead of demonstrating directly as Umno Youth and BN Youth, they create NGOs and use these as vehicles thinking the people are fools and that they can hoodwink us into thinking they are not involved.

After all the Registrar of Societies is also controlled and beholden to them like the police who granted the permit. The only way to stop all these nonsense and save this nation is by kicking BN out once and for all at federal level.

From Razaleigh.com

Certain features of the trial of Dato’ Sri Anwar Ibrahim pose a serious challenge to public confidence in the government. Public confidence is essential to the basic functioning of government.

1) The trial is being conducted in an overwhelmingly politicized environment. Part of its context is the earlier trial of Anwar on the same charge, a trial which was perceived worldwide as politically motivated. We do not longer live in an insulated world.

2) Pre-trial publicity by the local mainstream media has been so blatantly unbalanced as to convey the impression that the media are pursuing a political agenda. Since the local mainstream media is either government owned or tightly controlled, this translates into the impression that the government itself has an interest in its outcome.

3) Many Malaysians believe that sections of the executive and political establishment have an interest in this trial. There does not seem to have been any attempt to remove this suspicion.

In such circumstances the principle that justice must not only be done but seen to be done is breached. As in the case of the constitutional crisis in Perak and in the openly illegal denial of oil royalty payments to Terengganu and now to Kelantan, we as Malaysians suffer when our Government loses credibility domestically and internationally.

Tengku Razaleigh Hamzah
Member of Parliament, Gua Musang
Press statement: February 4, 2010

Mahkamah Era Tun Zaki

Selepas pemecatan hakim-hakim oleh Dr Mahathir Mohamad pada tahun 1988, Allahyarham Tun Suffian Hashim telah menyatakan bahawa badan kehakiman Malaysia akan hanya pulih dari segi kewibawaan dan kepercayaan rakyat dalam masa 50 tahun akan datang. Daripada langkah dan tindakan yang dilakukan oleh Ketua Hakim Negara Tun Zaki Azmi, saya melihat efisiensi Mahkamah sudah meningkat manakala kes-kes tertunggak banyak diselesaikan . Ini adalah satu perkembangan yang baik. Saya harap Majlis Peguam akan terus memberi kerjasama kepada badan kehakiman supaya Mahkamah kita lebih mampu menyelesaikan masalah rakyat dengan lebih cepat dan adil.

Hakim-hakim Mahkamah Tinggi juga telah menunjukkan sikap ‘bebas” dan berani dalam beberapa kes sejak kebelakangan ini. Bebas dan berani ini dalam konteks kehakiman ialah berani membuat keputusan berdasarkan fakta dan undang-undang serta Perlembagaan tanpa mengira sama ada keputusan itu popular atau tidak, sama ada dipuji atau dicemuh orang ramai. Hakim-hakim tidak sepatutnya mengambil kira sama ada pembangkang atau kerajaan menyokong keputusannya; keputusan yang bijak dan adil adalah tanggungjawab mereka.

Antara contoh-contoh ketegasan Mahkamah Tinggi membuat keputusan yang berani dan bebas baru-baru ini adalah:

• Kes Mahkamah Tinggi yang membenarkan penggunaan perkataan “Allah” dengan syarat tidak disalahgunakan oleh majalah Herald milik Gereja Katolik Malaysia;
• Kes Mahkamah Tinggi di Bintulu yang mengiktiraf hak Orang Asal Sarawak berhubung tanah adat (NCR); dan
• Kes Mahkamah Tinggi di Kucing yang mengiktiraf konsep adat Melayu “serah” dalam tuntutan pampasan penat lelah dalam usaha membangunkan tanah.

Mahkamah Persekutuan juga membuat keputusan yang tepat dalam soal “indefeasibility of title” dalam Kanun Tanah Negara bila mereka menolak keputusan awal yang sungguh tidak masuk akal. Mahkamah sekarang nampaknya lebih berwibawa jika dibandingkan dalam tahun-tahun 1990an daulu.

Kini apa yang ditunggu oleh rakyat ialah sama ada Mahkamah kita akan berani dan bebas dalam membuat keputusan yang adil dan tepat dalam kes-kes “politik”. Kes-kes ini akan menentukan sama ada hakim-hakim akan benar-benar bebas atau masih terikat dengan cara lama waktu zaman Mahathir dahulu. Cara lama ialah di mana beberapa hakim “sub standard” digunakan untuk membuat keputusan yang memihak kepada kerajaan atau orang-orang tertentu sahaja dengan mengenepikan prinsip undang-undang dan Perlembagaan tanpa rasa malu.

Sebab itulah keputusan kes Menteri Besar Pakatan Rakyat lawan Menteri Besar Barisan Nasional di Perak minggu depan akan menjadi penentu sama ada Mahkamah era Tun Zaki akan berbeza dengan era sebelum ini. Ia akan menentukan sama ada amalan demokrasi berperlembagaan dan kedaulatan undang-undang (rule of law) akan wujud semula di Malaysia.

Kalau Menteri Besar Mohd Nizar Jamaluddin yang dipilih oleh rakyat dalam pilihan raya umum 2008 menang dalam kes ini, maka kita yakin pemulihan Mahkamah telah bermula dan roh arwah Tun Suffian tidak perlu menunggu 50 tahun lagi untuk menyaksikan pemulihan badan kehakiman di Malaysia. Sebaliknya, kalau seorang lagi yang telah merampas kuasa melalui politik melompat yang diisytiharkan menang, maka kita akan kembali kepada zaman perundangan gelap seperti suatu masa dahulu.

A well-meaning lady came to pray for me. She’s a member of the infamous healing ministry of Jean Lim. The first things this lady asked was whether I have accepted Jesus Christ, have I been baptised, do I read the bible and pray, do I go to church, and whether I have accepted the Holy Spirit.

I felt that it was strange of her to question me this way. Yes I go to church, I have been baptised five years ago, I do pray and read the bible.

Maybe she thought that since I hadn’t received healing from God, I must be a not good enough Christian.

During our meeting, I tried to keep my thoughts clear, my mind open and listen what she had to say. She attested that she has seen people with cancer getting cured. “Perhaps so”, I reminded myself to listen. If I ask God more earnestly, I might just get cured.

As I recalled our meeting last night, something I have long known occured to me. She mentioned Cancer, which is curable today. When cancerous cells which contain a mutated DNA are killed and eliminated, none would be left behind to proliferate and healthy cells can thrive. Many of the people whose cancer went into remission are not even Christians! So, I asked her in an e-mail if it’s possible that those cancer patients who claimed to have been cured by the Holy Spirit were in fact healed by nature.

I bet many NF patients worldwide are Christians but none have claimed total healing so far.

My NF2 friend named Rebecca Dufek sent an e-mail which I read just now. It’s about another of her marathon runs to raise funds for NF research. It’s always encouraging to read about Rebecca’s quests so that ail of us can be cured one day, not just for herself.

Do you have the heart to tell Rebecca that the Holy Spirit will heal her if only she spends more time praying and reading the bible?

I don’t. I can’t help feeling judged.

And I still believe that the best thing we can do for people and for God is through service, serving people. Like the hospital I go to.

St. Vincent Medical Center, I blogged about it here.

Cancer as most people know it, proliferates to replace healthy cells. The proliferation can be stopped. But in NF patients, every cell already has a mutated DNA. It doesn’t require cell proliferation before we develop tumors.

I bet many webmasters are not aware that it has been a month and a week passed in 2010. Many sites are still sticking to copyright year 2009 or earlier in the footer.

Twitter and MySpace have updated their copyright year after Feb 1st, 2010. Google Blogs Network, haven’t.

Here is another list of top Malaysia sites which haven’t update their copyright year in footer:

1. Berita Harian Online — news site. 2009.
2. The Malaysia Insider — news site. 2009.
3. Kosmo! Online — news site. 2008!
4. Lowyat.NET — tech news & community. 2009.
5. CIMBClicks — online banking. 2009.
6. Maybank2u — online banking. 2008!
7. Maxis — mobile phone services provider. 2009.
8. Celcom — mobile phone services provider. 2009.
9. Lelong — auction & online shopping. 2008!

If you happen to know their webmaster, ask them to update their website’s footer. Also, kindly remind any webmaster you know to check their footer too!

[photo by Horia Varian]

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There is a story and legacy to share. Time passes so fast. Is almost 1 year. Last year around this time I get to know her. She my 2nd lover ever in my life. Many will not belief if they were to know until today Shen Yee Aun got 2 gf only. Everything remain as history and memories for now.

There no more her to talk to me every night before I sleep. There no more her to sms with her daily. There no more her for me to complaint and share my things or news anymore.There no her to sing song to me anymore. I miss it so much.
I will never forget how cute she use to be. Boy say yeah , ban yeah , lok yeah ? Looking back all those picture she send to me. Looking back at those video she send to me. She is very loving.

When I am sick there is always her to calm me although she is far away. Lately when I am sick alone in a big condo. Yes. So what? At the age of 22 I manage to buy a whole condominium by myself but I am living alone. There nobody could share part of my life. Just 3 weeks back I fall sick badly. I vomit badly. I got nobody to call because it was midnight. I also do not want to trouble my parents as they stay in Klang.

The nearest person in my life at that time that I could think of is my  debate coach buy I do not want to trouble him. He is also far away and he  also will be working the next day.

I got no medicine with me. I just do not know what to do. I can just lye down on bed and go to toilet to vomit whenever I can. At that time I wanted so much to call her. SMS her. But I do not want her to misunderstand again that when I got problems only I find her. But the truth is she is so important to me that I wanted to share my problems with her. Although most of my problems she cant solve or give me any good advice because those problems I face is way too complicated but got her to pujuk me like a baby and be there to listen or there to share the emotion as she use to be it already can cheer me up.

But in the morning I do not know why I take the risk. I sms her and she reply. I am actually taking the risk because I know she will never pick up. Or she will reply very cruely. or she just wont entertain me. or she will say she is sleeping or she will say she is headche. That morning she did reply me. Just a few SMS I feel so much better and fall asleep after that. I could not sleep the whole night. But then after that she do not bother me the whole day anymore.

I will never forget the moment we spend in Sabah together. From the way she walk out from teksi with her purple single and yellow short pants , the moment on the way to my hotel and the moment we reach the hotel. Even those food we eat in Penang Restaurant , Western Restaurant and even Apple Dougnut. I will never forget how she wake me up 2nd day by knocking my door. I could never forget the last moment before she is going back from the hotel until she took the taxi. I will never forget our tears.

Things change. She no longer loving me. No longer willing to give us a chance. No longer care about me. No longer bother or worry about me.

I will never forget how she always call me boy. the voice. the intonation. she is always cute.

Suddenly one day she was telling me that her ex want her back. I was so upset that I did no bother her for 1 week. After that on and off our relationship become worst and I got a shock just after not long we fought she couple back with her ex. So fast her heart changes. So fast she make her decision.

For a 100 reasons she could say how bad her ex is. How bad her ex treat her and all but just a while they r back together although she knew it he wanted her just for what reason.

I tell myself that from that day onwards I do not want to find her again. I hate her. Sometimes hate is love. But many times I fail to control myself. That why on and off I am cool mix with care towards her. I am confuse.

But few days back she really hurt me. She became a person that I dont use to know. I was worry about her eyes. I was worry about her headche problem. I miss her voice so much. Even if she scold me in the phone I will be happy. I call her. She do not pick up. I went to sleep. Suddenly in the midnight I was awake. I miss call her. 2 hours after that she sms and scolded me badly that I disturb her sleep.

I was very sad. Very hurtful. She never say those word to me before. She never treat me like that before. It matter a lot to me because she is somebody that is very important in my life.  Last time I like to disturb her in the midnight wake up gal wake up gal. She will say boy you are cute. Or even when she headche I will say gal dont talk d k? she say nvm. I will use loudspeaker. I miss you. Now ? Is just so different.

She even reply her last message delete my number and never find me again.

I had never betray this relationship. I had no affair with anybody. I had not done anything wrong in this relationship. Our only problem is because we got a lot of misunderstanding , personality clash and quarell a lot. Or worst is I like to use a lot of sharp words in my status that she hate it most.

I do not know why I deserve to be punish in this way. Even to her 2nd ex that always call and fuck her at least she will pick up the call. Even to her current bf that last time she hate also she will answer the call and reply nicely. Even to those admirer that she hate or dont like she will never say those word or treat them like how she treated me.

I am so hurt. Yet I do not know why. Maybe she mean a lot to me. Maybe I love her too much . Maybe I still cannot let go out past. Maybe she the 1st person I had my 1st time and 1st person who I gave myself totally. Not even to my 1st ex.

I miss her. I was waiting day and night. Even a simple sms with 1 word like boy would cheer up my day. I cry a lot for her. I was trying to cheat and lie to myself. Making myself busy.

Now she no longer love me. Not even like or care.

I miss her voice so much ! I miss her picture. Smsing with her. being chilidish with her. Joke with her.

I cant wake up and sms gal I wake up d. I cant say good morning. I cant call and ask her gal today what you eat? What you eat for lunch? Enough money? How r u? gal sing song to me. gal kiss me in the phone.

I cant ask her gal how is your headche?

I cant longer say good night gal. cover well. sleep well. sweet dreams.

During weekend I cant wait for her to come back from shopping. Ask her wat she wear on that day.

Is all gone. Is all memories. TIME PASSES SO FAST !

Many of my friends was telling me Shen you deserve a better one. Shen not worth it. She there is many good one around.

I lost. I lost to a guy who had betray , cheated and exploit her. A guy who treat her cooly. A guy that dont really care. Dont really call or sms much with her. Dont really bother her. A guy who just once in a while he is free he will fly there and wanted something from her that it. A guy that is way older and uglier than me.

So what if I own a house and a car at the age of 22. So what if I owns a company. So what if I am a National Debater. So what if I am a well known politician and writter. So what if I am this and that.

I lost !

But I dont even care now who win or who lose but I do not know why. Why ?

We cant even end up in a nice way? I just wanted to be her best friend. Support her and be at her side. I do not plan to chase after her , win back her or seperate her and her current lover.

But I try many times. I sms she always reply cruely. I call she will always act as if there is no battery , outside , busy , sleeping or headche.

I knew she do not view this blog. She do not visit this blog because she will never know that I will write all this thing. Maybe she dont even know I own this blog.

Valentine Day is coming. I was happily thinking wanted to buy her something but her last few SMS really hurts me. Tame me down.

My 1st love takes me 1 and half year to get over it. This love currently almost 5 months already. I do not know when I will totally let go.

I am still waiting. She promise me boy this year I will come over around June. Be my assistance. Help me. Help my mum. I had silently plan so many things for her when she comes here but she no longer will come here. Even if she do is also for her current boyfriend.

I will never have the chance to see her again although March maybe I will fly to sabah. Universiti of Sabah for debate. 25 minutes from her house. 5 minutes from 1 borneo mall. But I dont think so she will be there to support me.

Last time before every debate she will wish me luck ! Even last year when I went to Sarawak for debate when I just arrive in the airport she call me and say she miss me !

Crying badly when I blog this post. Maybe for a long time I dint cry anymore or maybe for a long time I try to hide my feelings. Act to be strong. Cheat and lie to myself. Last time I like to share my things and emotions with everybody but now I just act so cool so strong so tough yet is just another weak baby deep inside me.

I could only pray from far. Whenever I wake up. Whenever I sleep. She will be healthy. Happy always. May god be there to bless her and may all the reader here who read it help me to pray and bless her.

Sometimes I am confuse. I am angry. I hate her. I cant forget and forgive what she had say and done. But many times I miss her badly. Care worry and concern of her badly.

My 1st relationship 4 years. 2nd few months !

But I know I need to buck up . My juniors debater , coach and team need me to be at my best to win more glory. My students need me there to guide them. My business partner need me to grow the business. My book publisher is still waiting for my book to be publish. My political friends , fans and supporter still waiting for me to go back to politics.My family especially my mother still waiting for me to graduate. Few others friend still waiting for me to do business with them.
I cannot afford to fall. I need to be strong.

Now at this time which is already 5.30 am smoking while typing in my own condo which is the highest floor. Looking down at last year how I earn 5 digit figure every month while I am still studying. How I gain my 1st Volkswagen. How I own this condo. How I being a director for a company. How I enter final in National Debate Competition. How I help 2 models to become broadwalk modelling finalist and 1 of the is the 1st runner up. How I help my University candidate to win in the election. How I am being the youngest politician to rise in power to be branch , division and national secretary in less than 5 months. How many girls I had rejected. How I help all my students to score in exam. How I help my junior to improve tremendously in debate and now is better than me. How I fly to almost every part of Malaysia in 1 year. Sabah , Kelantan , Perak , Johor , Sarawak , Selangor , Kuala Lumpur , Perlis , Kedah dan Pulau Pinang. How 1 of Malaysia Malay largest book publisher allow me to produce book for them ( still not yet complete the manuscript ). How I gave political speech and people cheer, shout and came forward to me. How I help Suki Low Sook Yee the Malaysia 1st 1 in a Million winner to win. How I help Ronnie Liu that lost in 2 election to win in Pandamran.How I was being the youngest writter for DAP Rocket newspaper columinst.
How many VVIP that I can to know. Mostly are the top politician in the country. Many are MP and YB. How I get to know few Tan Sri , Dato and certain public figure. Millionaire businessman and etc etc.

BUT NOTHING COULD BE THE BEST GIFT AND THE BEST SUCCESS OF BEING COUPLE WITH MY 2ND EX ! NOTHING !

THERE ARE NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE MY LOVE. There are times where I wanted to say gal I am sorry. Let us forget everything. Give us a chance and start everything all over again but I know even if I say that I will end up hurting myself.

Coming monday will be another historical part of my life to being the 1st Chinese to enter a National Islamic Debate. There no more her to say good luck. To say boy dont ego ar. Boy dont over confidence.

I am getting old. Very old. Most of my students guess that I am almost at the age of 40 while I am just going to be 23 this year. I just looks so old lately. There are no more words that I use to hear while I was much younger. Words like you got a big eyes , attractive or seducing eyes. U looks young. u r cute. u r good looking. your skin is very good. you got a baby face. you are fair. you are handsome. what I use to hear now. You looks old. You got lots of admirer. You looks tired. You got a panda eyes. And even today my student told me teacher you got wrinkle d in your forehead. My parents even say you got some white hair d but is hidden. You got lots of enemies. You look pale. You look down. You look weak. You look sick.
My lifestyle is even older. I dont club. I dont flirt. I dont go out. I dont yam cha. I dont enjoy or have fun out there. I am just living a life of an old man. I just know how to earn money , teach , study , debate , write , do business , attend meeting , go for debate practise and that it. That my life.

I almost forget how wild I use to be. Flirt around. Sociliaze. Dance. Lots lots of activites. vacation. movie . trip.

I use to be very vain. very very vain. use facial products. go for facial. shop for the best cloth. groom and style myself nicely. take me hours to prepare myself before i go out. went for spa. drink lots of water. and etc etc
Nowadays? I never even bother. A slipper , a long slake and any simple random polo tee and I am out. Simply spray any perfume. Many times without even shaving. I use to be very particular about cloth and I will design a own concept of my dressing for each year

And this year when I am officially do not need my parents to buy me any new year cloth I almost do not know how to shop. I was suppose to shop when my mother ask me to get some cloth. End up I am in bookstore shopping for both instead of cloth.

Then when I go back to Klang I simply accompany my parents to shopping and get 12 cloth in less than 15 minutes. Slot my credit card and that it. Last time it took me hours days and weeks to choose even 1 cloth.

Things change. but looking back at my age I am suppose to be very young. Just going to be 23. Maybe many years back I use to hang out with lots of gals. Know lots lots lots of gal. But lately no. Get to know a few but that also hardly hanging out. But each time meet any male friends shen intro some chicks to me?

I said I do not know any. Ppl just reply u r just keeping for yourself. Hmmm…

Well. Feel so relief when I release all my emotion and thoughts here.

For those who use to look high upon me now plz dont. I no longer capable to help or guide you guys in anything

IN CONCLUSION I AM JUST A LOVE FAILURE !

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Dalam pada itu, Utusan Malaysia terus membuat laporan yang dilihat memfitnah Anwar walaupun akhbar itu di tegur oleh hakim perbicaraan semalam.

Namun Hakim Mohamad Zaibin Mohd Diah masih enggan mengenakan tindakan menghina mahkamah terhadap Utusan.

Akhbar itu semalam menyiarkan pula gambar-gambar dengan berita yang tidak berpaut kepada fakta kes.

Semalam, Pengarah Komunikasi Parti Keadilan Rakyat membuat laporan polis terhadap Utusan kerana dikatakan menyiarkan laporan ini yang dilihat bersifat fitnah bersabit keterangan Saiful.

Hari ini pula utusan menyiarkan gambar-gambar katil dan tilam di kondominium dengan fakta yang tidak berpaut kepada keterangan mana-mana pihak.

Gambar-gambar ini diambil oleh Pertubuhan Berita Nasional Malaysia dan disebarkan kepada semua media asing walaupun secara umumnya wartawan dan jurugambar lain tidak dibenarkan masuk ke kondominium berkenaan.

“Tetapi keterangan gambar dari mana Utusan sendiri boleh dapat, dia tidak tahu apa yang dikatakan oleh Saiful semasa itu, tiada wartawan di dalam bilik itu, tetapi dia sanggup menulis keterangan gambar apa yang dikatakan Saiful Bukhari kepada hakim dan sebagainya.

“Jadi ini jelas konspirasi yang melibatkan Umno iaitu tuan punya Utusan Malaysia dan mungkin Perdana Menteri.

“Mengapa ini boleh dibuat oleh Bernama dan bersengkokol dengan Utusan Malaysia di nama saya nampak ramai media lain tidak guna kerana mereka tiada di situ sendiri. Tetapi yang khususnya Utusan Malaysia terbitkan di muka depan dengan banyak keterangan gambar yang tidak betul,”katanya.

Peguam Anwar Sankara Nair berkata selain Utusan, Sinar Harian turut melakukan kesalahan serius dengan memberi fakta salah bersabit gambar-gambar di muka depannya.

“Kami sebagai peguam telah membantah dan memohon kepada mahkamah satu amaran keras diberikan kepada Utusan dengan Sinar Harian yang telah menyiarkan gambar bersama berita tersebut.

“Walaubagaimanapun mahkamah telah menolak dan kami tidak puas hati dengan keputusan mahkamah,”katanya.

Beliau berkata mahkamah perlu mengeluarkan satu amaran keras kepada media tersebut memandangkan ianya disalah laporkan.

“Ini masanya yang sudah berlaku di sini, ini adalah menghina mahkamah dan juga sesuatu kesalahan di bawah akta media cetak dan publikasi,”katanya.-Yusmawati Mhd Yusof/Sharifah Azmawati Syed Abdul Aziz

Just came back from the Revive Isotonic party at Euphoria.

It was also a prize giving ceremony to those who won the recent RevUp contest on Facebook.

Veryyyy sleepyyy naooo… so here are some quick shots.

JoshLim belanja dinner at Papa Johns.

Met up with Belinda and Joe at the entrance of the club.

Performances and prize giving took place at the centerstage

Met quite a lot of people there… woot!

There were props and backdrops outside the club for us to take photos as our Rev Up moments… ahah Hanie and me playing around.

Photographers were assigned at the spots to take photos of us with the props and photos get printed and we get to bring home! Not bad.

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13 Days in Hell – Flash Games Download – Overview In this 13 Days in Hell shooting flash game, you play the role of some guy, armed with only a single pistol, some how got trapped in hell and must shoot various demons, collect their souls in order to survive and possibly escape from hell. Buy bigger, better guns and ammo with collected souls.

Download 13 Days in Hell (File Size ~ 4.57 MB)
Download the ZIP archive: 13-days-in-hell.zip

13 Days in Hell – Title Menu

Moldy old tomes, pentagons, monsters. Yup, this looks just like hell all right.

13 Days in Hell – Instructions!

Aim and shoot with the mouse, switch weapons, reload with the keyboard. Simple controls.

13 Days in Hell – Action!

Aim for head shots you will take them down faster. Buy better guns as you progress.

Deimos’s Daily Reads
No reads for today.

Deimos’s Thoughts
Simple graphics, controls and game play. Still decent for an old shooting flash game.

Deimos Asks
Do you enjoy shooting flash games? Yes? No? Why?

I’ll be speaking this Sunday at Wangsa Maju’s Alpha Angle Shopping Center,to introduce my book, Jutawan Era Baru.

Similar to the previous author’s talk in Mid Valley, this event is free. The details are as follows:

MHP Bookstores,
Alpha Angle Shopping Centre
Jalan R1, Seksyen 1,
Bandar Baru Wangsa Maju
53300 Kuala Lumpur

I will be speaking from 3.00pm to about 3.30pm. If you’ve got a copy of The New Millionaires or Jutawan Era Baru, I’ll be more than happy to autograph it for you.

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Remember Batman in Kingdom Come? In the graphic novel, an alternative-future and paralyzed Bruce Wayne moves around with an exoskeleton. Robotic braces allow him normal movement, all controlled like his mind.

Similar technology may become mainstream soon actually. Argo Medical Technologies in Israel is currently holding US trials for its ReWalk. That’s a exoskeleton that allows people who are paralyzed from the waist down to use their legs again. Users may not be able to control these mechanical leg supports with their minds, but the crutch-based control scheme looks pratical enough—but unfortunately requiring full upper body function as well (sorry quadriplegics).

The American trials currently involve 14 people, all walking around with a setup that detects upper body movement through shoulder sensors, and moves the legs based on these signals. The battery lasts for 3 hours if used continuously, while Argo Medical is shooting for a public release by the end of the year (pending FDA approval of course). No word yet on the planned price, nor any potential plans by the robotic overlords to get the paralyzed on their side.

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hehe aku baru je kembali daripada cuti-cuti pakistan

menjengah ke kota bersejarah, kota rohtas yang dibina oleh sultan sher shah suri

aku letakkan dulu kesemua posting2 yang aku buat melalui facebook

malas la nak update blog secara live sebab masa tak mengizinkan

banyak sangat nak ditulisnya sampai x terupdate la blog nanti kan. hehe

kesemua catatan di bawah di post secara live di facebook dan diulang siar di sini untuk kenangan terindah

kita buat posting ala2 che det (bernombor) pula ya.

gambar nanti la aku upload ok. hehe

1. rohtas fort mcm menarik utk dilawati. Hehe
2. Rohtas Fort (Urdu: سPQ ہ روہ VWX Qila Rohtas) is a garrison fort built by the great Afghan king Sher Shah Suri. This fort is about 4 km in circumference and the first example of the successful amalgamation of Pukhtun and Hindu architecture in the Indian Subcontinent.
3. islamabad mendung je pagi ni. Nampak mcm nak hujan. Harap2 hujan la kan. Hehe
4. iklan zong ada di mana2 di area bandar rawat ni
5. banyak plak tanaman sayuran seakan sawi di kiri jalan, rasa mcm nak bergambar plak ngan pemandangan yg menghijau ni
6. kelihatan ramai pakistani sedang rileks menikmati chai panas di atas katil2 kayu yg begitu sinonim dengan pakistan
7. mereka mmg bersungguh menghias trak2 mereka, sungguh berwarna warni, tiada seinchi pun bahagian trak yg tidak dilukis
8. melepasi plaza to mandra, wajib bayar 15 rupees di sini.
9. ada satu trak yang penuh dengan muatan, mungkin gandum, melintasi jalan. Trafik terhenti seketika terlihat bas awan express di jalanan. Ingatkan awan ialah cloud di dalam kata biasa. Rupanya awan ialah panggilan seperti saddar, agha dsb
10. oh rupanya tanaman seperti sawi yang berbunya kuning dipanggil weed di sini. Saya gagal menterjermah weed di dalam bahasa ibunda. Apa agaknya ya
11. kelihatan sungguh gersang sekali muka bumi di sebelah kiri. Pokok tiada berdaun dan rumput kering di mana2 sahaja
12. gua malas nak update blog, jadi gua update fb dulu untuk mencatat perjalanan dari islamabad ke,,,,, jeng jeng jeng
13. melalui grand trunk road atau dikenali sebagai gt road amat memeningkan dan memenatkan, mungkin kerana jalan yang
    tidak rata dan berkali2 beralun
14. melalui stesen cng bernama ittefac cng. Sungguh berdebu suasana di sini. Kena cepat beredar sebelum terkena debu liar
15. tiba di gujar khan town. Suatu bandar yg agak besar. Diberitakan menteri water & power berasal dari sini. Jalan elok kembali. Banyak poster2 politik di sini
16. berlambak2 stesen cng dalam bandar gujar khan ni. Bermacam2 warna stesen cng ni
17. langit tidak berawan, hanya kelabu menjamu mata, mengiringi perjalanan di sepanjang bandar gujrat khan
18. kelihatan anggota polis gujar khan mengawasi satu kereta toyota di sebelah kanan, mesti vvip ni
19. di sepanjang terdapat pokok2 yang kulitnya berwarna putih, seperti disiat2 lagaknya. Pokok apakah ini?
20. mungkin aku akan buat satu post istimewa berkenaan perjalanan melalui grand trunk road dari islamabad ke jhelum ni
21. terdapat banyak perusahaan kecil2an membuat batu bata merah di kiri jalan. Sungguh tradisional cara pembuatannya
22. polis sohawa jhelum membunyikan siren meminta untuk diberi laluan di sebelah kanan
23. senibina kubah masjid ala2 yg terdapat di multan mendominasi senibina di bandar sohawa
24. melintasi bandar sohawa umpama menerjah pemandangan di zaman malaya dahulu kala. Keadaan begitu daif dan berdebu. Jalan raya dibina dengan tar kasar agar ttidak dirosakkan okeh trak berwarna warni
25. lalui tarraki toll plaza, ingatkan ada tokk gate girl, rupanya toll gate lain. Kena bayar 15 rupees. Bagus pekerja tol sebab memberikan salam walaupun dengan senyuman tawar. Minum chai kurang gula agaknya mamt ni pagi tadi
26. melintasi jambatan di bumi yg gersang. Diberitakan bawah jambatan adalah sungai, tetapi kini kering dek musim sejuk yang berdebu
27. terdapat pokok bunga kertas berwarna merah di tengah2 gt road. Berbunga pula pokok ni di musim sejuk yang kering
28. kita sepatutnya melintadi bandar dina sebelum jhelum. Harap2 ada kejutan di bandar dina nanti. Saya berhajat untuk solat jumaat di bandar jhelum sebentar nanti. Pasti kelihatan seperti makhluk asing apabila terdapat seorang expat bersolat di dalam masjid dengan jersey adidas dan jeans, di kelilingi oleh jemaah yang berpakaian salwar khameez
29. taman negara lehri park di sebelah kiri. Nampak gersang umpama gurun thar di sindh.
30. terdapat banyak penjual oren di kiri jalan walaupun musim oren sudah berada di penghujung
31. ntah dari mana, muncul gembala kambing dengan biri2nya di sebelah kiri jalan. Habis bahagian atas kambing diwarnakan dengan warna biru dan oren. Kambing pun mahu bergaya di sini agaknya
32. trak2 berwarna warni dengan selamba menggunakan lorong kanan gt road. kelajuannya sungguh perlahan, umpama menikmati chai sambil membelek2 pakora untuk di makan dgn tertib
33. iklan telenor talkshaw, syarikat telekomunikasi dari norway mendominasi dinding2 kedai batu di kiri jalan
34. memasuki bandar dina. Lengan pula bandar ni walaupun telah tengah hari. Di persimpangan dilema. Ke kiri menuju mangla dam dan mirphur. Di kanan adalah jalan ke rohtas. Jemputan sulltan shah di rohtas lagi kuat agaknya
35. kanak2 sibuk bermain kriket di mana2 di bumi gersang melepasi bandar dina
36. memasuki jalan ke kubu rohtas. Dibina oleh sultan shah dahulu kala. Jallan sungguh berdebu di sini. Weed menghijau menghiasi umpama permaidani
37. lagi 8 km menghampiri rohtas fort. Takde nampak kubu pun. Biar betul. Haha
38. kereta berselisih dengan keldai penjual oren di kiri jalan
39. melintasi jambatan besar di atas sungai jhelum. Kering kontang sungai ni. Ada la air sket2. Kena amik gambar ni
40. sampai ke rohtas fort. Sesi bergambar rasmi ya
41. fuhhhh penat giler memanjat kat rohtas fort. Gua hengat kecik je. Sekali besar giler dowh. Kena pergi lagi la masa summer nanti kalau nak cover full area
42. ok mmg puas hati la bergambar sakan kat rohtas fort. Mcm biasa aku masuk muzium 10minit sebelum kul 1pm. Dah nak tutup tuh beb. Byr 200 rupees. Local kena 20 rupees adjer. Siap la gua pakai salwar khameez lepas ni. Haha
43. fuhhhh baekk la plak tourist guide aku ni. Nak bagi upah 500 rupees. Dia pulangkan 100 rupees. Dia tahu pasal twin towers beb hehe. Wokay gua mau bergerak ke masjid nak solat jumaat. Lagi 30 min masuk zuhur kat sini. Hehe
44. giler lapar plak lepas melawat rohtas fort. X pe lepas solat jumaat nanti kita carik chicken karahi. Teringat plak zaman2 melantak nasi beriyani power kat kedai makan masjid perkim pj masa kat msia dulu. Hehe
45. ok aku berjaya amik gambar river dhal yg kering kontang, bersambung dengan river jhelum yg mengalir lesu. Pose sekali ngan sayuran weed yg menghijau. Nanti gua update blog la ok, hari ni malas la nak buat live blogging. Live facebooking cukup la. Hehe
46. hujan rintik2 mula membasahi bumi kering kontang di rohtas fort. Mujur aku datang awal, jika tidak pasti lencun dan becak di kawasan bersejarah idea dan ilham sultan sher shah suri ni
47. misi mencari masjid yang besar dan selesa di bandar dina. Harap2 dapatlah ketemu. Aku dah bersedia utk dipandang sebagai alien semasa solat jap lagi. Dah la pakai jersey adidas merah. Memang mengundang mata2 memandang la kejap lagi dalam  masjid kan, hehe
48. terjumpa gak masjid sunni di sini. Kena dengar bayan dalam urdu dulu. Alamak apsal la tukhang bagi bayan sebijik mcm osama ben laden ni ek.
49. baru diberitakan yang bayan dalam urdu ni akan berlangsung lagi 30 minit. Adesssss lama lagi la nak khutbah kat masjid sunni kat bandar dina ni kan. Gua sudah lapar banget ni dong
50. terperasan ada beberapa jemaah yang memakai kopiah diperbuat daripada mengkuang warna coklat. Nampak unik, terasa nak beli la kopiah mengkuang tu lepas ni. Pasti vogue kan, haha
51. seperti biasa ramai akan memandang aku seolah2 nampak alien merah in the attic memasuki ruang angkaraya bumi kering kontang di sebelah kubu rohtas. Depa tak tahu alien ni muslim sunni mcm depa juga. Hehe
52. giler berkeroncong sm salim perut aku masa tengah mendengar bayan urdu ni. Dapat duduk bersila di atas rugs berwarna ala jersey togo semasa world cup, di litupi ceiling masjid yang terbuka, masih under construction, mmg priceless
53. lepas ni kena beli jaket kaler tanah or coklat lembut. Supaya boleh camouflage di kalangan jemaah yang berpakaian salwar khameez warna pastel. Hehe
54. amin. Alhamdulillah. Selesai menunaikan solat jumaat tanpa ada sebarang kejadian tiidak diingini. Beginilah kehidupan di bumi pakistan. Lidah sentiasa basah dan hati tidak tahu samada kita akan hidup atau mati seminit lagi. Secara jujurnya inilah realiti kehidupan di sini.
55. sememangnya masa nak solat tadi ada bukan sedikit, tapi banyak kembimbangan. Melihatkan kelibat polis bersenjata mengawal pintu masjid, jemaah keliling yg kelihatan sugul dan agak suspicious sekali. Apatah lagi apabila melihat khatib yg seiras dgn osama laden. Berkali2 kalimah syahadah diucap tatkala berlangsungnya sol…
56. aku masih lagi diberikan Allah kehidupan untuk dihargai. Masih sempat update facebook dan liveblogging membuat catatan perjalanan di bumi yg begitu asing. Hehe
57. kembali bersiaran di islamabad. Hujan rahmat mengiringi kepulangan gua ke islamabad. Hehe. Alhamdulillah hujan akan membersihkan segala debu2 musim sejuk. Menghijaukan pokok2 dan mententeramkan suasana. I like. Hehe
58. time ro recollect all the facebook updates and trasnform into blog posting. Dah bokeh buat buku pasal coretan perjalanan dan pengalaman di bumi asing ni la kan. Hehe

One of my favourite Mozilla Firefox extension is Live PageRank. This extension will automatically check and show the pagerank of the page you are browsing at the lower right conner on your Mozilla Firefox browser.

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Have you had your yearly job performance review?

Your boss may say something, but mean another thing. So it’s time you learn to read between the lines.

Being one of the choosen CMS (Content Management System) I choose to work on variation projects, a lot of time, client want a custom home page instead of the page that list only the recent entries.

The simplest way on changing the front page would be go into the setting page and set a page that you created as the front page.

However, custom home page may come in variation requirement too. Normally I would go for change the home page using PHP. Similar like the tagging keywords, the almighty if… else.

<?php if (is_home()) { ?>
<!– Custom design and content –>
<?php } else { ?>
<!– Post loop –>
<?php } ?>

However, both style have their own pro and con.

Setting a front page with Wordpress settings doesn’t give you the abilities of custom design on the front page and it also limited the content. Since, it only shows the page you created on the “Pages”.

As for the if…else trick, you cannot have a specific posts pages, even if you set in the Wordpress settings it will come back as the custom home page, because it is on the first page (is_home, right…).

Dear MariaDB users,

MariaDB 5.1.42, a new branch of the MySQL database which includes all major open source storage engines, myriad bug fixes, and many community patches, has been released. We are very proud to have made our first final release, and we encourage you to test it out and use it on your systems.

For an overview of what’s new in MariaDB 5.1.42, please check out the release notes.

For information on installing MariaDB 5.1.42 on new servers or upgrading to MariaDB 5.1.42 from previous releases, please check out the installation guide.

MariaDB is available in source and binary form for a variety of platforms and is available from the download pages.

It is also our pleasure to announce that we have a partnership with Webyog to offer their tools for trial and at a discounted rate if purchased within 30 days. Find out more at: Download – SQLyog MySQL Fronted, MONyog MySQL Monitoring Tool or via the software partner downloads.

We welcome and appreciate your feedback, bug reports, bug fixes, patches, and participation on our mailing list. Find out more about working with the community.

Enjoy!

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Sometimes, when my mood is down, issues that have gone unresolved beyond tolerable time frames tend to get blown out of proportion. I will become all flustered and my entire day is spoilt. Today is one of those days until I took a step back to put them in perspective. They are just small issues that have been left hanging through no fault of mine. These are not life or death issues. They are annoying nonetheless but nothing is disrupted. There are bigger issues in life that I should be concerned with. Note to self: Keep emotions in check. Do not sweat the small stuff. Time should be better spent on fulfilling and productive endeavours.

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A couple of days ago, I accidentally dropped my 10-month-old Apple iPhone.

It resulted in a White Screen of Death and a trip to Maxis service centre where my iPhone was diagnosed with Permanent Head Damage, and I was charged with first degree murder.

The iPhone is now in the ICU. I'm not sure how fast Maxis works, but I probably won't get it back until a few months later.

The iPhone to me was the king of phones. It is capable of doing so many things that other phones are not able to. I find myself so dependent on it that I don't even know how I'm gonna function without an iPhone.

I was half-tempted to find an excuse to get myself the latest Apple iPhone 3GS. But I know I'm gonna get my original phone back eventually and it wouldn't make sense to hang around with two Apples.

As the saying goes, an apple a day keeps the doctor away. Too many apples suck your wallet dry.

I figured it may be healthier to have some variety in my fruits.

There's a lot of hype over the Blackberry and a lot of my friends have been egging me to go towards The Black Side. Even until now, I never understood what's so god damn fantastic about the Blackberry - the iPhone can pretty much do everything a Blackberry can do. I don't think I'll ever switch to using the Blackberry.

But ladies and gentlemen, this is called "peer pressure".

It's too difficult to explain why I did it, but I got myself the Blackberry Bold 2. The biggest advantage Blackberry phones have over others is something called the "Blackberry Messenger", or BBM. To put it simply, it's like Windows Live Messenger on mobile.

If you have a Blackberry and you have another friend on Blackberry ANYWHERE in the world, you can give him your "Blackberry PIN" and send messages to each other free of charge.

I've got about 20 of my friends on Blackberry Messenger. Then one day, a total stranger by the nickname of "Rock Star" suddenly added me on BBM.

I had no idea who she was, but I accepted her request anyhow and we started having a conversation.

Kenny: Yo, who's this?
Rock Star: Hi, is this Reuben?
Kenny: No, it's Kenny here.
Rock Star: Really? What is your last name?
Kenny: Sia.
Rock Star: You mean I've got the wrong person?
Kenny: Yes I think so. I'm in Malaysia.
Rock Star: Oh sorry. I'll delete you straight away.
Kenny: It's okay. :)

And that was that.

If this were a fairy tale, "Rock Star" and I would continue chatting, we would fall in love, she would fly all the way to Kuching to meet up. Then we would kiss, marry and have three beautiful little kids together.

Unfortunately, reality is not as kind.

This is how she looks like.

FML.

From Sidney Morning Herald
By Barry Wain

The last time Malaysia’s former deputy prime minister Anwar Ibrahim was charged with sodomy, the country’s judicial system was on trial. This time around, the stakes are even higher.

If Anwar is convicted, in a case that opened in Kuala Lumpur’s High Court on Tuesday, Malaysians can wave goodbye to the best chance of developing a two-party political system in more than half a century.

It will also end any real prospect of Malaysia extricating itself from corrosive race-based politics, and signal the former British territory’s continued descent into self-destructive extremism.

Over the past two years, the charismatic Anwar, 62, has achieved what many analysts thought was impossible. He has tacked together three disparate political parties and formed a credible – if still fragile – opposition, representing hope for a multiracial future.

Nobody else has the organisational ability, political skills and personal trust to hold them together and provide the People’s Front, as it calls itself, with dynamic leadership.

Anwar’s legal problems should be seen in this light.

In 1998, then-prime minister Mahathir Mohamad sacked Anwar as deputy premier and finance minister because he suspected Anwar was using the turmoil of the Asian economic crisis to challenge him.

Beaten viciously in custody, Anwar spent years in jail after being found guilty of corruption and sodomy in trials regarded as fatally flawed by international legal authorities. He was cleared of sodomy on appeal, but banned from seeking public office for five years.

On his return, he galvanised the fragmented opposition into a stunning psychological victory in 2008, capturing five of Malaysia’s 13 states and denying the ruling National Front coalition its customary two-thirds majority in parliament.

The opposition was able to make such gains by tapping into the “politics of disgust”, winning the support of Malaysians alienated by rampant corruption and cronyism. Significant numbers of them crossed ethnic lines to vote for candidates promising reform.

Anwar targeted the affirmative action program called the New Economic Policy, which is supposed to channel economic benefits to native peoples, predominantly Malays. The policy has been widely abused to enrich better-off Malays, notably members of the ruling United Malays National Organisation (UMNO), the dominant party in the 13-member National Front.

In a bold move, Anwar formulated an alternative new economic agenda to assist all poor Malaysians, based on need rather than ethnicity. Not only did droves of disaffected Chinese and Indians desert the government, but a significant percentage of Malays also switched allegiance.

UMNO, in power since Malaysia gained independence in 1957, has reacted badly to its setback. Faced with the possibility of defeat at the next elections, due in 2013, the party has concentrated on sabotaging the resurgent opposition rather than reforming itself.

Like the rerun of a bad movie, Anwar was promptly arrested and charged again with sodomy, this time on the complaint of a university drop-out who had worked briefly for Anwar. Consensual sex between males is illegal in Malaysia, punishable by 20 years’ imprisonment and caning, though the law is rarely enforced.

The public perception in Malaysia is that “sodomy 2″, as the local media dub it, is entirely political, a view shared by the international community. An Amnesty International spokesman has characterised the trial as “the same old dirty tricks” to remove Anwar from politics.

UMNO has also resorted to scaremongering, using race and religion to reinforce the fear among Malays, the majority community, that they are besieged and under threat.

UMNO was blamed for fanning racial tension when arsonists last month attacked 10 churches across the country, after a court ruled that Christians could use the Arabic word “Allah” as a translation for ”God” in the Malay language. The government insists “Allah” should be reserved solely for Muslims, despite widespread use of the word by Christians and other minorities in Arabic-speaking countries and places such as Indonesia.

Prime Minister Najib Razak, elected president of UMNO last year to replace the discredited Abdullah Badawi and stem UMNO’s decline, has talked reform and even made minor adjustments to affirmative action. But while he promotes an inclusive vision for the country under the slogan of “One Malaysia”, an UMNO-owned newspaper often carries racist commentaries.

Anwar and his allies in the People’s Front have found the going rough in the past two years. Through a mixture of inexperience and incompetence, they have underperformed in the states they control.

Still, if Anwar is jailed for sodomy, it will not only end his political career but also terminate an attempt to open up the economic and political systems of one of the Muslim world’s most important countries.

Barry Wain, writer-in-residence at the Institute of South-East Asian Studies in Singapore and author of the recently released Malaysian Maverick: Mahathir Mohamad in Turbulent Times, speaks to an Asialink public event on February 16, 6pm, Level 1, Sidney Myer Asia Centre at the University of Melbourne.

For a short while recently, I contemplated about switching doctors and having my next treatment done in India. Those times of indecision were emotionally trying. I did not want to part with my surgeons of six years at HEI. Feeling vulnerable, I wrote to someone and told him my indecision. Perhaps he misunderstood me for having a financial dilemma and suggested to get a second opinion from local Neurosurgeons. I said that I will speak with the surgeons he recommended but they must be patient enough to write on my whiteboard and discuss at length. I do not want to communicate through a third person. That well-meaning man said that he was sure my fears were unfounded as he “cannot see any reasonable physician being so impatient in attending to their patients”.

I wanted so much to tell him this: “Sir, ordinary people and the least of us can see clearer”. But I didn’t say it as he might be offended. This man is almost a royalty.

Last year, a Malaysian lady contacted me out of concern for her son who has NF2. She had been bringing him to doctors at local government hospitals. I introduced her to Dr, Lekovic who reviewed her son’s MRI together with Dr. Friedman. The boy has a Plexiform Neurofibroma, probably on his fifth cranial nerve.

From the tone of her emails, she sounded apologetic and oppressed. She was careful in addressing me as Miss Yvonne until I told her to just call me Yvonne and how she repeatedly mentioned her concerns, I sensed that she was distressed and scared. At the start, I thought she was just too worried for her son. But her form of distress was familiar, I recognized it.

It’s an uncertainty about your health fueled by FEAR.

I used to have that fear. It’s the kind of fear that make patients lower their head and speak softly without looking directly at the doctor. It silent the patient to just listen what they are being told. When you ask a question, your voice would tone down to a whisper and you’d speak little by little as if to test the waters. Is it alright to ask?

That man I mentioned in the beginning eventually forwarded my email to his friend. So on Monday, I am going to see a Neurosurgeon at UMMC with referral from the chief surgeon of Malaysia.

I am glad for the support I get today. But it’s impossible to erase my past experiences which still remain the fate of many people.

I am sure there are kindly physicians in government. But my physiotherapist friend would tell you that the most difficult doctors she has to work with tend to be Neurosurgeons.

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My 23rd day in Seoul. My mum is reading my blog expecting my latest stories; I’m feeling a bit guilty for the lack of updates. Quick note… I’ve been eating well, sleeping well (10-12 hours a day, must be the winter lol) and living well. Nothing that need to be worried about; take good care of yourself instead.

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From The Economist

The opposition leader treads a familiar path into the dock

SLINGING mud at opponents is a staple of most democracies, even if voters might prefer a more sensible debate. In Malaysia, a prudish, majority-Muslim country, it seems that nothing succeeds quite like below-the-belt personal attacks. For Anwar Ibrahim, the opposition leader and former deputy prime minister, who went on trial this week accused of sodomising a young male aide, the tactic is wearily familiar. In 1998 he was charged with the same crime, found guilty and jailed. Exonerated and freed, he has staged a comeback that another conviction might jeopardise.

Much has changed in Malaysia since Mr Anwar last took the stand. His nemesis, the country’s longest-serving prime minister, Mahathir Mohamad, who presided over his downfall, has retired, if not exactly gracefully or quietly. The once-mighty United Malays National Organisation (UMNO), which leads a 13-party multiracial governing coalition, looks increasingly vulnerable at a future election. A judiciary that was seen as beholden to its political masters has begun to assert its independence, and has sided with free-speech plaintiffs in prickly faith-related cases.

That independence will be put to the test in “Sodomy 2.0”, as Malaysia’s press has taken to calling Mr Anwar’s trial. His lawyers have pressed for the disclosure of prosecution evidence, including medical reports of the accuser, Saiful Bukhari. He told the court on February 3rd that Mr Anwar coerced him into having sex, which would be illegal in Malaysia and punishable by up to 20 years in jail. Mr Saiful worked briefly for Mr Anwar in 2008, when he was 23. During the same period, he was seen with aides of Najib Razak, then deputy prime minister and prime minister since last April. Mr Anwar accuses Mr Najib and his wife of a conspiracy to frame him and says they should testify. Mr Najib insists he has nothing to do with the case.

UMNO has been scheming to weaken the opposition, which won five out of 13 states in March 2008 elections that stunned the ruling coalition. Last year it seized back one of those states, Perak, by luring defectors. Then it tried, in vain, to peel off an Islamic party in Mr Anwar’s alliance. An anti-corruption agency has been mobilised to dig opposition dirt, with disastrous results in the case of Teoh Beng Hock, a political aide who died last July after falling out of a window while in the agency’s custody.

Mr Anwar’s trial is a much more potent weapon for UMNO, both as a blot on the opposition leader’s image and a distraction from his politicking. UMNO-owned media will harp on the sordid details, just as they did in the first trial when a semen-stained mattress was hauled into court. The blogosphere, however, where young Malaysians get their news, may not be easily impressed. Nor, it seems, will foreign investors, whom Mr Najib is desperate to attract with promises of a more open and less UMNO-dominated economy. His government’s image is already dented by corruption scandals, including a multibillion dollar project at Port Klang that has been dogged by accusations of mismanagement and cronyism. Some Malaysians may be wondering why such matters seem to generate less heat than Mr Anwar’s alleged transgressions.

From Qantara.Com

Interview with Anwar Ibrahim by Rizki Nugraha

As leader of the opposition, Anwar Ibrahim is one of Malaysia’s most influential politicians. In this interview with Rizki Nugraha he speaks about Muslim-Christian relations, the influence of religion on politics and the outlook for democracy in his country.

Tension between religions in Malaysia has been rising since the court ruling that allows non-Muslims to use the word “Allah”.

Anwar Ibrahim: Certain groups feel that it is in their interest to ratchet up tension because it serves their ulterior motives, but I would not say that great damage has been inflicted on Muslim-Christian relations. The Christian community’s response to the arson attacks has been very positive and measured, and many Muslims have come out in support of the Christian community, for example, forming neighbourhood watch committees to protect Churches.

I have travelled far from the epicentre of the so-called “disturbances” and I find that people are generally unperturbed by the court ruling and are wary of being manipulated by the powers-that-be, whose steady decline in the popular ratings is the real reason for this artificially created crisis.

I’m happy to say that the broader population is not easily hoodwinked.

Why did the Malaysian government insist on appealing the court’s decision, despite the fact that in doing so, it risks widening the gap between Muslims and Christians?

Ibrahim: The government appealed because it is hostage to the demands of an incendiary few. This group insists on using this issue to drive a wedge between different parts of the electorate – hoping to score a few points with fringe elements. They are not very concerned that the consequences of their actions could broaden divisions in society and lead to strife.

Maznah Muhammad, the Singapore-based political expert, is concerned that the Malaysian government is increasingly mixing politics and religion. Do you think this concern is justified?

Ibrahim: The Federal Constitution of Malaysia clearly outlines the role of religion in Malaysian society. Islam is the religion of the state, but the freedom to practice other religions is guaranteed. We think it is wholly appropriate that religion be manifest in the political world in that the values that are greatly esteemed by religion – such as justice, mercy, love and compassion – inspire policies that lead to peace and prosperity.

However, the current government in Malaysia is notorious for mixing religion and politics to rather unscrupulous ends. Islam is being applied in ways that are deemed oppressive, contrary to the principles of the religion and in violation of some of our constitution’s basic provisions. This is an abuse of power that must be checked.

The government’s decision to appeal creates the impression that it is standing up for the interests of a certain group. Is there no future for secularism in Malaysia?

Ibrahim: The government’s bias in all matters judicial is clear. Since the new prime minister came to power in April 2008, the government has not lost a single court case that has gone to the Court of Appeals. There is hardly any doubt that politically charged cases will eventually be decided in favour of or at the discretion of UMNO (the United Malays National Organization, Malaysia’s largest political party – ed.)

The issue is, therefore, not secularism, or the demise of it per se; the real dilemma we face in Malaysia is a deficit of democracy. A corrupt judiciary, a shackled media and the lack of personal freedoms means that the ruling party can run roughshod over the provisions of the constitution. Right now, religion is being used by the ruling party to garner support from certain fringe elements and in doing so, it is overstepping some of the bounds that define the relationship between the state and religion.

But the ruling party’s willingness to overstep the bounds of the law to maintain its grip on power has been manifest in many forms including rampant corruption and incitement of racial sentiments. So our primary concern in the opposition coalition remains the safeguarding of the constitution in order to sow the seeds of democratic pluralism and greater accountability.

How did the minorities parties that are affiliated with the National Front (Barisan Nasional), such as the Malaysian Chinese Association and the Malaysian Indian Congress, react to Prime Minister Najib Razak’s policy?

Ibrahim: The contradiction of their affiliation with the increasingly parochial and racist UMNO is glaring, but their options at this point are limited. How can they not moot their grievances given their dependence on government largesse. These parties represent the old school of Malaysian politics, which has more or less seen its heyday and is now in its twilight years. It would be unrealistic to expect a sea-change in their outlook, no matter what the prevailing circumstances are.

Two political forces, the most influential parties in Malaysia, the Barisan Nasional and your party, the Pan-Malaysian Islamic Party, PAS, have been branded as conservative Islamic forces. So what is the difference between your party and the government party, for instance concerning the importance of promoting religious dialogue?

Ibrahim: I don’t agree that PAS, which is a major player in the opposition coalition, is a conservative party. In the crisis over the “Allah” issue, they made their stance very clear, namely that Christians and Jews can use the term, upholding what is considered a mainstream position throughout the Muslim world. Therefore, to lump them together with UMNO as exponents of conservative Islam is to badly misperceive them. Both PAS and the rest of the opposition coalition are in favour of dialogue among all who want to talk about preserving and promoting religious harmony in our diverse population.

The ethnic groups in Malaysia are still fragmented, especially politically. They tend to defend the political interests of each group. Sometimes they also try to outdo or eliminate the interest of other groups. Do you see this phenomenon as a challenge or even an opportunity for democracy in Malaysia?

Ibrahim: It is true that the various ethnic communities in Malaysia continue to perceive their interests in a narrow and parochial manner. That is because the government, which has been in power without interruption for 52 years, has promoted and fostered this sort of mind-set as a divide-and-conquer strategy. As a consequence, the various ethnic groups often react to situations by falling into a zealous ethnic turf protection and demarcation mind-set that in time creates ethnic ghettoes.

Pakatan Rakyat, the opposition coalition I help to lead, vigorously rejects this approach. Through its recent collectively endorsed Common Policy Framework it has accelerated the process of dissolving these hardened strata and set in motion the transformation of Malaysian political society so that it is no longer in thrall to structures that engender ethnic hegemony, financial and judicial corruption, and overall decay.

So far, the people have responded positively to what we have to offer. We have been able to secure victories in elections in five of Malaysia’s key states and have become contenders for power at federal level in just a few years. I think the future is bright for the new agenda we are offering the people.

Now you can track any website changes using Google Reader, even the website does not provide a RSS feed. I show you how.

1. Copy the web page address that you want to track (but do not provide a feed).
2. Goto Google Reader and click the “Add a subscription” button.
3. Paste the web page address which you copied earlier and click “Add” button.
4. Google Reader prompts that the web page does not provide a feed but it can create a feed for you. Click “Create a feed”.
5. Done.

The feature comes handy if you want to track changes of a page but it does not provide a feed.

Here is example of Google Reader’s auto generated feed:

The generated feed is very simple and contains no info on what has been changed/added/deleted. Personally, it is not up to my expectation.

To track web page changes, I use ChangeDetection.com. What’s your recommended tool to track web page changes?

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2. 意外
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6. District 9
7. 大事件
8. Sideway
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10. The informat

dah lama plak tak layan lagu neh kan

dulu masa zaman2 fotopages aku letak lagu neh as background fotopages.

meliuk lentok je melodi lagu ni kan. hehe

Biarkanlah resah sayang
Sukar ku lalui
Buat ku berduka

*Kenangkanlah oh semalam
Walau cinta dikunci
Janji tak ku lupa

**Tak daya ku halangi
Tak ku cuba jauhi
Tetap di sini
Terus menanti

Korus
Ikrar kita mengharungi badai sakti
Mencari sinar kasih suci
Walaupun nafas ku ini pasti terhenti
Jangan pula ada sangsi lubuk hati
Percaya cinta tiada ganti
Kau yang ku cari
Kaulah kasih ke akhir hayat nanti

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kat bawah ni lagu studio version

power ah suara siti kan.

3 months ago I was invited to attend an event by SonyEricsson at KL Live.

They were launching 3 of their latest phones, the Satio, Aino and Yari.

Here are some shots!

The host for the night was Serena C from MixFM.

They had booths all over the place for ppl to try out the new phones everyone flocked to the stage when event started ahhaha

There were dance performances and models walking on stage showing off the little machines.

I like this shot.

The sort of catwalk ended when the 2 big shots from SonyEricsson went on stage to present to us their new products.

We then had some free time before the next performance started (psst: hint of whats to come.. “Simply Magic”)

So we took the time to chill and took some photos.

MORE TOMORROWWWWWW!

Pelan A memang akan berjuang habis - habisan di Mahkamah

Pelan B sudah perlu gerak satu gerakkan yang besar selagi Anwar masih berada di luar. selagi masih belum ditangkap. perlu menghadapi sebarang kemungkinan disabit. maka setelah disabit sudah terlambat. pergerakkan perlu bermula daripada sekarang dan pastikan lebih bersejarah daripada 1998 dan bersih.

The Leon Wars – Flash Games Download – Overview Command either the human or Draylocks army in The Leon Wars adventure role playing flash game. Recruit armies for your hero, attack and conquer villages, towns, castles etc. Research and upgrade your armies, win battles and level up your hero to become stronger. Are you ready for war?

Download The Leon Wars (File Size ~ 2.15 MB)
Download the ZIP archive: the-leon-wars.zip

The Leon Wars – Title Menu

The Leon Wars is about the slave race Draylocks revolting against the human masters.

The Leon Wars – Map!

Build an army, attack and conquer other places via the map. Just point and click. Simple.

The Leon Wars – Action!

Lead your hero into battle, recruit soldiers to assist him in the battles. To arms!

Deimos’s Daily Reads
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Deimos’s Thoughts
Nice graphics, simple controls. Might not seems to really be such a simple game play as lots of clicks is involved before you get to see some action though it is not really that hard.

Deimos Asks
What do you think about slavery? Do you think it still exists nowadays? Why?